She was my woman, my special lady whom showed me love since the day we met. She was everything to me, I wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of my life with her... it was sometime around September when I decided to make her mine forever. I knew she would not say no, she had to know this was coming, it was about 9:30 pm and she said she would be here around 10, thats another thing I loved about her was her punctuality and professional demeanor when it came to attendance and set up time frames. I decided to go outside for a cigarette, help pass the time, I walked outside reached in my pocket for the pack, fumbled a smoke out then lit it up and inhaled, feeling the nicotine flow through my body, relaxing me and helping calm my nerves, tonight was the night, she was to be mine and I be hers forever.The weather was slightly warm and humid, something felt electric in the air, some sort of nervous tension that could be cut with a knife... I looked at my watch only to see a few minutes had passed by, I decided to go inside and watch some t.v. it would help pass the time I thought.. Nothing on as usual, the same old reality show, another lame game show, the quintessential major network sitcom, the jokes are lame and the writing is awful, flip to the movie channels only to find some lame sports documentary about some baseball player who was around 70+ years ago; I looked at the time 9:58, I rush towards my room and grab the ring, one last look in the mirror, Oh shit i forgot the champagne, walking towards the fridge I hear the doorbell, it has to be her I thought, she was never late. I put the bottle down on the table and walk towards the door, this is the moment... the time has come for me to take the final step into happiness, I open the door only to see a single police officer holding her purse, "Excuse me, are you G.R.? You were listed under Jane Stetsons in case of emergency contact list, I am sorry to inform you that there has been an accident downtown..." I stopped listening after he said accident.
She was gone, God has stolen her from me like he has in the past, yet another thing he had to take from me... I couldnt help it, I felt the warm tears roll down my cheek, "If there is anything that we can do for you please feel free to let us know, we will keep you informed on the case if we get any new evidence or a concrete lead..." his words kept coming in waves, the pure feeling of knowing that the only thing in this world I loved was gone drove me insane...
Over the next few weeks I secluded myself from the outside world, ordering in, never going outside and never answering my phone... she was gone, my true love had left me and I couldnt do a damn thing about it... some bastard stole her life from her, from me.
Then the voices came, at first they were usually just some nonsense, but after a while they begin to come in clearer and more concise. A few months passed and went, her funeral was today but I couldnt bear to get out of bed and changed, her family called a few times but i didnt answer, they couldnt understand my pain, the suffering of loosing her right before I could make her happy. I waited until around 6-ish before I would enter the world, It had started raining as I arrived at her plot, the sky was black and angry, it was just a matter of time I thought before it would all make sense, "take the easy way out and see her again" the voice in my head said, I could hear some thunder crash in the background as I reached my final conclusion.

I reached in my pockets for my blade, it was shiny and as sharp as I needed for this last bit, I had a note written and ready for whomever discovers my body first, I opened my knife and slit my throat, Im coming baby, dont fear the Reaper I thought as I slowly faded out, everything was loosing its color and texture, my senses were reeling, this will be it... the last thing I remember before I completely fade to black was the sound of a car approaching and some doors slamming, maybe there will be an afterlife and maybe there wont, it was hard to say, I would know in a matter of seconds... I feel someones hand on my shoulder then Im dead. "He is dead, I cant believe this guy killed himself next to his Fiance..s grave, how Romeo and Juliet, hey he left a note..."




lost in a sea, no shore line in sight, what a fright, must continue to fight, hell isnt so bad.